HEAR MY STORY PART 8

I didnt attend choir practise on saturday nor churchservice on sunday bcos i didnt want to see MrsWilliams.I’vemade up my mind not to tell her anything and i knewshewould ask me if she set her eyes on me.I didnt know i was only adding more petrol to a burningfire.Some choir members came again after service to checkonme,thinking i havnt recovered fully or not strong enoughtoattend service.Of course when i saw them,i pretendedto beweak still.Bode came later in d evening when everybody had left.He said “I knew u didnt come to church today bcs ofme,notbcs of ur health.U refuse to forgive me despite mypleas.Itold u its d work of d devil,pls let’s be doing as we usedtodo before..pls now”..He began to weep.I was moved with passion when i saw him weeping.Iwent tohim,gave him a gentle pat on d back,and said “Dt’sokay.Stop crying.It wasnt only ur fault,but mine too.Weboth need to ask God for forgiveness and make sure itdoesnt happen….”Before i could finish my sentence,he got up,held me nbegan to kiss me.Every attempt to rescue myself out ofhishand failed.At a time,i surrendered,andagain….Ithappened!.Before i could put myself together,Bode dressed up andran out of my room.I started weeping.“Lord,i’ve done it again.I disobeyed U.I didnt yield to dvoice of d Holyspirit.Whatwill i do now?”.For days,i was praying and weeping,asking God forforgiveness and what to do,i didnt hear anything as iheard it earlier.It was so obvious dt something waswrongwith me,as i was a shadow of myself.Even my dressingchanged,a 60yr old woman would dress better.Everybody was asking,”what’s wrong with u?.Hopethere’sno problem.Are u still sick?”.My usual answer was “No problem,all is well”..butwithinme,i knew nothing was well.I wasnt attending mid-week services also.I would prefertobe in my room,and be thinking.D thought dt botheredmemost was “Will God ever forgive me?.If d first one was a mistake,what about ds one?”.Mrs Williams called me one wednesday evening afterhavingprayer meeting in church.”Sis Sewa,i noticed u were notinchurch today for d prayer meeting,how are u?.Are u notokay yet?”.“I’m fine ma”.“Then,why have u been keeping urself away fromchurch?”.“Nothing ma.”“U’ve started again.Oh!.Dt reminds me,u promised totellme something d other day,will u come and see metomorrowafter school?. I will be waiting for u at d church office.”“What time ma?”“Let’s make it 4pm”.“Ok ma”.She hung up.My heart began to beat very fast. I could hear d sound.What will i say?. Maybe i should just cook up astory..but,whatif she knew it’s all lies. Oh myGod!..whatmess have i gotten myself into?. How will i get out of dsnow?.As i was pondering over ds,my phone rang.It was my dad.I picked it.What did he say?.We shall see in d next part.June 25 at 7:58pm·Public